I spent the day working on my upcoming coaching series and could not help but reflect on many of my own choices and path. As I was composing the piece about intuition and desire -
Our deepest wishes are whispers of our authentic self…..and you are here today ready to stand up hear and acknowledge them, to make something great of them....
How could I not help but reflect on my own whispers, wishes, and intuition throughout my life?
All of sudden as if the universe wanted to let me know I am on my way to really honoring it (my own intuition, that is) I was given two signs.....
1. This quote appeared on my google search -
What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matter compared to what lies within us - Ralph Waldo Emerson
The irony is that this quote was first introduced to me almost 4 years ago on a beautiful silver bracelet at a shop while on vacation in Vancouver. I never knew at that time who the quote was by but the phrase captured my attention. It stood for the pain of losing a future soul from an ectopic pregnancy in between Harris and Evy. It spoke to me for not for recent loss of unborn child or the possibility of having or never another but the strength I found in myself and family in accepting that. It spoke to me about something within. Something within that I would find out the next day was Evy.
Invariably, Ralph Waldo Emerson would become one of my favorite sources of inspiration without my knowing until much later in my life of who he was. This quote of his is in fact on my coaching cards -
No one can cheat you out of ultimate success but yourself - Ralph Waldo Emerson
2. I later went looking in the storage room for something and a dusty old book got my eye -
Something More: Excavating your Authentic Self- Sarah Ban Breathnach
I had picked up this book years ago while living in Calgary after the whispers of my wishes were screaming so loud to be heard. In others words I was CRANKY with my life (not all of it) but the part related to ME. We had decided to move home and I was determined to find something I loved, something that mattered. I took time and looked but eventually relenting to pressure and expection (mainly my own and my inner critic "Miss Let's Be Realistic Here - it all looks good on paper, can it really be that bad?) I caved and never read the book, returning to the world of 'realistic' and Engineering.
Thankfully and maybe by divine intervention - I DID go onto to find strength and courage to change elements of my life....BUT TODAY?
Just TODAY I find the book, a book for whatever reason escaped garage sale and book swap. A book - all about coaching, finding passion, listening to yourself....wow.
If you are interested in finding out about your own whispers - send me a note....I leave you with this quote....of course, by Ralph Waldo Emerson
My favourite all time Martini Momma post. Well written. Well said.
Well, awesome.
Posted by: Kal | November 20, 2009 at 08:59 AM
Love this post Kath. We a journey you have been on. I cannot imagine where you'll be years from now!
Posted by: Brandi | November 20, 2009 at 01:17 PM
girl - you and i need to get together with a massive bottle of red and the weekend. this is the BEST post kath!!! i loved it - it certainly resonated with me. let's hang out. i want to check out every nook and cranny in your brain. xo wendy
Posted by: Wendy | November 22, 2009 at 10:02 PM